I got no clue why I like to write my shit in English.

I mean my English is good, but not that kind of good as the native speakers do.

Anyway, I guess it's just because if I write it in another kind of language other than Chinese, my friend which most of them are Chinese, will not border to read, either because they are not good at the language or, simply just don't give a damn.

So I guess it might be a good idea if I hide some little dirty secret amongst those lettered lines.

I am not trying to seduce anybody to read my blog, just simply telling the truth here.

On the other hand, compare with Chinese, English is a totally different language, even could be defined as another kind of culture from "out space".

Thus, the word which is superficially meaning the same stuff in both of the languages might actually stand for totally different things.

At least I guess the attitude and mood will be different...

 

My GF did sth pretty odd and out today.

Kind of got into a fight with her ex and ended up in a police-station.

I don't know if there is any reasonable explanation behind such incident.

But I know that's not her fault.

People says, love is the biggest thing on this planet, and the only thing bigger than love is hate.

Personally I don't quite give a shit about such saying.

I don't know and I don't care about how's her current attitude against that man, I only care about who she's falling love with now and if she's happy with that.

And that special person just simply happen to be me.

I am sorry that I can't be there with you in such very moment and I hope you can understand.

Three weeks and four days is not that kind of long and I'll be home soon.

So don't be silly my love, silly kills.

睡觉做梦是人之常情

但是逢睡必梦呢？是身体问题还是精神问题？

而且还经常梦到同样的地方，而且还梦的很有剧情很有连贯性

让我每次睡觉前/睡醒来，都有种分不清梦与真实的挫败感

难道我醒着的这个世界是虚幻的，而梦中的是真实的？

并不是GIS和MATRIX看得太多了，我只是真的有这种错觉而已

也许不是错觉？

 

每天都这样半睡半醒，多少杯咖啡，多少罐红牛，多少盒香烟都不能让我彻底清醒过来

神经衰弱了吧

PAIN KILLER吃完了，又去买来，继续吃

也许只是心理暗示，因为吃了也没太多变化，只是不停的告诉自己，你现在应该感觉好一些了

然后，意识决定感觉，就觉得自己好像舒服了

人无时无刻不在欺骗自己啊

 

生物钟完全混乱，多次半夜跑到学校念书，然后上午上课，下午睡觉

这样更加增加了生命的不真实感

别人都在干这件事情的时候你在干那件

别人都在干那件的时候，你却在干这件

是我抛弃了世界，还是世界抛弃了我？

矛盾论怎么说来着？从相对的相互影响的两个因素中提炼出真理的影子？

简直是玩笑...

 

经常梦到的地方，是我家的老屋

我4~16岁居住的地方，住得最久的地方

小学初中那九年，都是在这个家里度过的

生命中的大多数朋友也是在那个家认识的

父母第一次要闹着离婚也是在那个家

我奶奶也是在我还在那里的时候去世的...

不过这些都和我要说的没关系

我要说的是...那房子虽然小，但是挺好的...

我生命很多快乐的日子，悲伤的日子

都是在那间小房里度过的

为什么经常梦到它呢？难道房子也会托梦么？

 

和自己倾诉

就像鸡肉萨拉里的生菜叶子

虽然不好吃

但是在你吃鸡肉的时候，多少你还是得吃点儿...

也许下次换土豆火腿沙拉更适合...