| Paul's profileThe Chronicles of Life a...PhotosBlogLists |  Tools  Help |
|
November 22 Morning, Myself.It's 5:34 am.
Pretty is still in her dream.
I woke up around 5:17 am today.
Made myself a cup of coffee, lit up a cigarette, sit in front of my pc and started to thinking.
Pretty got big plan, so do I.
Recently, life for us seemed like it got on the wrong track, kinda out of the rhythm.
We are kinda short, on basically everything we need.
I wish dayz could become better and better as time moves on from here to there.
Feelings regarding get off the easy street is surely harsh and bitter.
But ain't everybody face the samo shit just like us?
So I guess complaining is not the right thing to do.
Just hang in there buddy, and believe in the saying，
"tomorrow couldn't be worse than today". November 16 Regarding I got crushed by my co-workerLike I said in my last entry, it's a long story, totally.
And what done is done, I really dont wanna talk about it.
But still, mistakes were made, drama was played and lessons were learned.
What I really like to say to let go sth, to comfort myself, is listed below.
1. Dont promise anything out of ur power.
2. The best way to shut somebody up is to make him/her wordless.
3. The only way to make others wordless is to become the best of best, the "one of a kind".
4. Not everybody can be the "one of a kind" thus be prepared.
5. It's not necessary to tell everybody u r the "one of a kind" since fame only brings envy.
6. Be patient, Rome was not built in a day.
7. Be kind and nice, twisted mind only brings twisted sight.
8. Dont rush urself if u've already got the tension and attention.
9. Wiser is much more important than richer.
0. Lighter heart lives longer.
So tomorrow will be a new day and I am still kinda wondering where is my stop...... November 15 Couldn't be betterLife bites, in a definitely but unexpected way.
Just when I thought everything is on the right track, shits happened like they got a plan.
My wife is in her period, which means temper like hell. Plus no more "honey honey me so horny".
I got crushed at work by my co-worker and got pwned by the boss, that's a long story.
And in one way or another I don't know how, I pissed off my mom and almost gave her a heart attack.
Meantime, my good buddy lost my official transcript that I've been waiting for like forever and I got ask the U for another copy.
Life sucks balls, so where is my stop? September 27 I amI am the red in the rose, the flowers on the blankets on your bedroom floor
I am the gray in the ghost that hides with your clothes behind your closet door I am the green in the grass that bends back from underneath your feet I am the blue in your back-alley view where the horizon and the rooftops meet I am the black in the book, the letters on the pages that you memorize
I am the orange in the overcast, a color that you visualize I am the white in the walls that soak up all the sound when you cannot sleep I am the peach in the starfish on the beach that wish the harbor wasn’t quite so deep By Owl City September 25 上班第一天呵呵，今天上班第一天
不是很忙
领导交代我写一个PS，写俩RL
一共也就1000来字吧
截止日期是周一中午12点
基本给了我3天时间
相比当年学校里动辄10 PAGES DOUBLE SPACE EXCLUDE REFERENCE LIST的RESEARCH PAPER
这个任务未免简单了点
不过也罢，一切都是从小事做起的
慢慢来吧，慢慢来，做好眼前的，看好以后的就好了
今天收到了Rachel和Renee的信，比较开心
New Job, New Life恩，最近好事坏事不少
坏事就不说了，先把从回国到现在的好事说下
6月28日，正式结束大学课程
7月02日，回到祖国
7月20日，收到毕业信，准备找工作
8月16日，婚礼结束，很顺利
8月26日，蜜月开始，去了南非和好望角，很开心，很难忘
9月02日，去了香港，不是人待的地方...
9月04日，又回到祖国，开始找工作
9月10日，被某单位相中，第一轮面试
9月15日，某单位继续相中我，第二轮面试
9月21日，某单位还是相中我，第三轮面试
9月22日，我有工作了，人生第一次，正式工作
9月26日，明天，我第一天上班，某单位不再是某单位，成了我的单位
我不知道以后会不会回去加拿大，但是国内的生活呢，基本上是毕业，结婚，找工作，我在几个月内都给搞定了，就差一个生孩子了....
慢慢来吧，变化太多太快也不是好事
答应大家放上的来得照片请再等等吧，最近真的比较忙了.... September 07 蜜月归来十天的南非+香港蜜月之行归来已经好几天了
事情比较多，还没有整理好照片
包括蜜月和婚礼在内的，手上至少有3k张照片....
过些日子具体介绍并放上照片吧....
找工作进行中... August 09 SHAME ON ALL OF U PPL OUT THERECouple hrs ago I deleted my latest space entry due to the pressure from my family.
It's the first time I actually delete sth from my own very space, and it's done by sth against my will.
So...
It's so fuckin embarras that for this time, the very first time, I fuckin compromised.
But it's even embarras more, for those ppl who forced me to do so.
Because u ppl are the very example of what I consider as loser,
What I consider as who has no guts to face the problem but only know how to bury it.
My MSN space is my town, is my fuckin town. U ppl out there can read and judge or do whatever u want.
BUT U CAN'T FORCE ME TO WITHDRAW MY OWN IDEA AND MY REAL FEELING.
Don't shit me about stuff like "get over it".
'cause I can't. I can not get over it.
This incident only will reinforce my idea on free will and free speech.
And the right to express my-genuine-self.
There will be no next time for u ppl even to have the chance to force me to do so
August 04 Desperation, frustration, confusion, comprehension, transformation and the once in a life time big fuckin presentationDon't get fooled by the title, I won't put so many things in this post since I don't got the time.
But yeah, I still gotta shit about sth, either ppl read this in the near future like it or not. It's my blog, I got the right to decide what I want to say and what I don't. There will be a Chinese version shortly after I finish this but it will be a total different entry. Although I won't talk about all the shits appeared in the title, but yeah that single line basically concludes my recent state of mind.
I am tired, and it's not fair. I don't know if it's the whole marriage thing or I just simply wanna get even. I just think it's not fair. Anyway, life is so fuckin hard, it supposes to be not fair, or where to get the fun huh?! Only got about 30 some dayz to prepare for my once in a life time big fuckin presentation - the wedding ceremony.
And the clock has tic tac to the point that I only have sth less than half of that. Yeah maybe by some very tiny and remotely chance that I may marry more than once in my entire life, from the long-shot perspective, But just like we always say, the first time always is the best. So, I must, and I have to, take the entire wedding thing serious enough as if the end of the world may fall upon me if I scew this up. Anyway, I shall fear nothing, I just got really tired. My parents, not very supportive for this wedding, as least not as supportive as I expected.
Financially, it's a mess. I am currently trying to apply a "$50" budget plan into a "$100" purchasing project so take ur guess... Phsically, they don't have the time to be supportive. Work, the stock market and my beloved grandma, talking about having a life huh?! Mentally, well let's skip this part so I won't freak out since freak out will dramatically decrease my health point and I don't have a lot of that left. Anyway, I can't choose my parents and they've done a wonderful job to feed me up and other stuff. Still need to say thanks, even I don't feel to. And there are a lot of other stuff I can complain about. But complaining ain't gonna solve shit. So just let it be, I shall be prepared, for the very moment that my entire life will turn upside down. Just let it be, like I still got a choice or sth. July 10 到家一周已经到家一周了，忙得没有什么机会写点东西
或者干脆就是我不想写吧
发生了不少事情，有意料之中的，也有意料之外的
当然，还暂时没有什么对付不了的
慢慢的事情也会越来越多了，麻烦也会一点一点接近了
不过我想，应该还是不会有什么我对付不了的吧
我毕竟是自称un-fuck-able的人
有点困难有点艰辛是理所应当的
年轻人出力长力，慢慢的都会好了
国内很热，空调很舒服，coke zero和pepsi max现在也都有卖了，啥时候有我最爱的rockstar就完美了
不过想想也有10天没喝energy drink了，也没有什么不适应的
除了准备婚事，心里还在担心过些日子找工作的事情
心态也多少有了点变化，不过都是往好的方向
生活给生命的选择不多，那就得发挥点想象力了吧
断了7天的健身也从回国第三天恢复了正常，每天6点30到8点，还好还好
那个健身房除了洗澡的地方恶心点，别的都还好
性价比高，节约型社会要学会省钱了...
一件让我小感慨的事情
black eyed pea出了新专辑，大概1个月前吧，或者三周
反正我是在专辑放出下载，还没有正式发售的当天就down到自己的Mp3里了
最近健身一直在听，很有节奏感的歌
然后除了第一次听到是下载后的那天
第二次是10天前在学校的健身房，当时在放这张碟的一首主打，i gotta feeling
第三次是david送我上飞机前一天，在calgary的chinook centre，放的是boom boom pow，另一首主打
第四次是回国当天，在吃饭的饭店听到，放得还是i gotta feeling
第五次是在国内的健身房，还是那首i gotta feeling
第六次是刚才在楼下交手机费，一个很小的移动营业厅里，这次是party all the time了，也是首主打
这当然从一个侧面证明BEP的火热是全球化的，全世界人民都喜欢的
但是我的感受，主要是感觉现在的世界真的很小很小了
不同的文化，与其说冲击，不如说在慢慢融合
也许，总有一点理想国会出现吧
真是有点讽刺啊，我自己的生活未处于理想状态，竟开始幻想世界大同了
白日梦，day-dream June 25 SO LONG! MY UNDERGRAD! 恩，大学生活正式结束了 说真的，6个小时前考完的时候，我是笑着走出教室的 教授和我握握手，道一句good luck 估计现在这经济形势，这句话应该不只是客套 今天班里参加考试的不少人 都是走出教室也走出校门了 都是最后一门了 可是我也许高兴了没有多久吧，就觉得又开始失落了 自己在学校待了太久了，过来的25年里，在学校呆了足足18年 18年啊，觉得整个学校系统就是我的生活了 对于考试，作业，演讲，测验，都是信手拈来了 但是对于外面的世界呢？ 我做好准备了么？ 到时间实现抱负了吧... 慢慢来吧，一切都好的 so long, my undergrad, i am gonna miss u. June 23 大学最后一天课+大学最后一次论文+老婆生日 过去的几年里，我估计我曾经多次幻想过大学最后一天课和最后一次交论文时候自己会有多么激动 真的发生的时候，其实感觉非常平淡，甚至有些失落 就这么结束了么？大学生活就这样结束了啊... 这里和国内不同，感觉一切都很平静，很祥和，没有那么多内容，不能叫丰富多彩 每天在作业论文考试演讲之间奔波 不知不觉也感觉不到什么辛苦，反而觉得很充实 现在结束了，突然感觉有点空虚了 最后一门课请来两个guest来讲，很无聊的内容 最后一次交论文一次交了两个，一共43页，也算是no.2的record了，no.1是drama3850的58页 周三再考个试，我的大学生活就结束了，至少暂时结束了 五年了，经历了很多么？也没觉得 不过的确学到很多东西 还能回想起来自己刚来这个地方时候，那个时候的自己 还有现在的自己 有些东西一辈子都不会变，有些东西一直在改变 留住什么留不住什么，下了决定，就不要后悔了 虽然平淡，但是我还是觉得很快乐的，这五年，应该是我人生中挺有价值的收获吧 另外今天老婆生日，祝老婆生日快乐 June 21 国内烟草税上调 本来新闻刚出来时候，以为国内也走加拿大路线了，提高烟草销售价格来控制烟草的使用 今天再看新闻，我靠，原来烟价不会涨，这个烟草税会在整个出厂-分配-批发-零售过程中被经销商消化掉 那我请问伟大的烟草局， 您这是圈钱还是控烟？！ 不提高烟草价格而打着控烟的名目来圈钱 你们是不是都拿屁股思考问题呢？ 想通过烟草厂商经营成本提高来减少生产？这简直就是放狗屁吗！ 原来10块钱的烟成本5块，现在成本7块了，少挣了2块，这钱找谁去？ 是不是只有通过增加销售量来保持原来的总利润？是不是？是不是？是不是？ 他妈的基本的数学没有学过么？ 这怎么叫控烟？这简直叫纵容！ 难道想靠企业自己的良心来实行这个政策？ 那更是放狗臭屁了 一来烟草税收是国内一大支柱财政收入，你减少生产估计政府先会闹砸 二来哪个做烟草的会减少生产量啊？烟草利润高（烟农除外），开烟厂的和开个印钞机一样 我严重怀疑烟厂除了扩大生产规模，吸收更多小烟民以外，可能还有继续打压已经被压榨的不行的烟农 要知道，一盒香烟的成本只有５％－１０％，假如这个数值是２块，那烟农的收入只有这２块的１％不到 而烟农一年的辛苦与烟厂大规模的自动化生产相比，其投入的时间精力是要远远超出想象的 要不说烟农现在都开始种别的东西了，因为种烟根本不能养活自己！ 哎，官商一家，鱼肉人民 等着吧，总有那么一天的 June 20 右翼 右翼信奉的是“英雄史观”，认为历史是英雄创造的，其政治主张是偏向中产阶级、精英阶层的。右翼特别反对左翼的“均贫富”的观点，认为这实际上是在追求终
点的平等，是错误的。右翼和左翼共同之处是都追求起点的平等，但右翼更强调个人的使命感和责任感，强调国家应给每一个公民以机会，尊重每一个人的个性，强
调平等受教育（基础教育）的权力，认为人必须对自己的命运负责，贫困只能源于自己的低素质、懒惰和无能，不能怪其他的因素。右翼的经济政策是主张自由放任
的，主张小政府、大社会，对经济的干预和宏观调控越少越好，通过主张减税、减少公共福利、刺激投资来解决失业问题和社会问题，认为福利越多，人的的依赖性
就越强，进取心就越差，就会鼓励懒惰，打击勤奋，因此对一个国家的前途将造成消极的影响。 我是右翼. June 18 2 Weeks So, yeah, got another 2 weeks before I get the hell out of deathbridge. Still got shit load of things to do. My 3806 business plan still in pretty shitty shape, requirement is 25 pgs, I got like 9 or sth for now. Graduation photo still need to be taken care of, plan to do that next week after my 3806 final. Also, still need to keep on my work out plan. I've got shaped a little bit but I want more. And gotta pick up the stuff that I ordered online for my wife, from Sears. Hope they just kidding with me about deliver the stuff on Jun 30... And need to pack my stuff, clean out the room. And need to give my WOW account, alone with $500 worth of gold to David. And also, my graduation letter, can't live without u baby, took me fuckin five years to get to u, u harsh bitch... And also need to talk with Rex's wife about my tax return and the PGWP. I do need the cash, but for PGWP, I just wanna get it, just in case, u know... And that's about everything. Arhhhhhhh....life is hard. June 16 Let’s Bitching About SthSo yeah, I heard stuff, from other ppl around me, from the neighborhood, about how evil ppl can be. See the problem is, I got no problem with the evil ppl. The whole damn world is evil. It’s in our blood, in our soul, in our mind. My thing is, I just hope those evil ppl can keep some distance from me, just do not try to “evil with me”. The reason, quite simply, ‘cause I am “eviler” than u. I told many ppl for many times, I am the un-fuck-able, I am the Chinese dude who enjoy to shot ur head off if u mess with me. There is no limitation for evil, no boundary for being twisted, no regulation for being the monster. I am the monster who play nice-guy every fuckin single day so I can control myself thus nobody get hurt. So, take this as a warning. And trust me, I rarely warn ppl those facts before I bite. So guess that’s all I want to say. June 14 近期状态4090终于结束了，很荣幸的认识了几个不错的老外，也很恶心的认识了几个绝对sb到elite的加拿大人，你妈个生孩子屁眼长嘴上的，都怎么上到大四的？组里有个大号sb，怀疑心智成熟度不超过16岁，智商不超过85，什么都不会干，妈的写个东西还得我帮你改，我操！你他妈的国际留学生还是我是国际留学生阿？！老是不来参加小组会议，最后一问才知道他最近在找工作，家里帮他在政府找的活…我当时“哦……………”明白了，要不说这块料都这jb揍兴了还有脸活着呢？！原来是给加拿大政府工作啊，呵呵，那还行，反正保守党里都是这种jb长青春痘脸长梅毒的主儿，也算是个归宿了。 班里还有别的组的几个老外，那叫一个cooky，cooky到就差拿你那大jb满班甩了，边甩边说“你看你看我有jb哦，我有jb哦”~班里俩组，一个做ford，一个做rogers的，就数你们牛b了。行了行了我们知道你们有jb啦，妈的现在装个假jb比隆胸还便宜，得瑟什么啊？！最后那个presentation时候，ford那个组那种问问题的方式，我就一个字，操！你们他妈的有家教么？有打断人家讲演问问题的么？你们走运评的不是我这组，要是我的话，老子直接拿笔记本给你丫脑袋拍成花生酱！干你娘的了。 总之，最难得最苦的一门课结束了，真是感觉神清气爽啊。很走运我们组是第一周要做的，要是耗到下周估计我就神经了。多少天不睡觉不吃饭的做这个垃圾项目，妈的Wal-Mart,以后老子绝对不从你那里买东西！ 最近还是在健身，天气越来越热了，开始加一些项目比如游泳，今天自行车完了练腹肌，然后跑台上放松了10分钟，然后跑到游泳池游了个500，出来差点没晕菜，看来下次要是想在有氧之后加项目，比如游泳这种，还是得吃点东西，明显感觉低血糖了。爬着从健身房出来，吃了一个energy bar，感觉好很多。恩，energy bar是好东西，好消化，营养均衡，除了味道烂了点。 听了Black Eyed Peas的新专辑，说真的没有以前好听了，除了一两首以外吧。这种太party-lization的歌真的不适合自己了。还是改回owl city吧，静点好，静点洋气。 还有18天回国，还有63天婚礼，回国比在这还得忙，哎，没办法没办法… 好像也没啥别的要说的了，先到这里吧。最近天气好热了，赶紧回家享受空调。 转载：什么是中国的房地产 猪通过勤劳致富有5元钱存在老鼠开的钱庄里。猪打算拿这5元钱建一个小窝，大盖要花2元卖地，花3元搭窝。王八是搞工程的，他想在猪身上挣更多的钱，于是找来当投资顾问的狐狸想办法，狐狸说：这好办。于是找来管地盘的狼，开钱庄的老鼠一起来商议，结果王八从老鼠那里借来200元，用100元卖了狼的地，花了3元把猪窝盖好，花了50元给了狐狸咨询服务费，猪没有地，只好求王八把窝卖给它，王八要价500元，老猪说只有5元买不起，这时候狐狸说服猪去向老鼠借钱，老鼠答应借500给猪，前提是要他连本带利还600元，可以分10年还清，并且产权证拿来抵押。结果成交。猪到最后花了600元买来了猪窝，比他原来的计划高了11倍，猪努力了十年去挣钱还贷。在这场交易里面，狼，老鼠，狐狸还有王八都挣了钱。以后他们就如法炮制。更多的猪去贷款买房子了，这时候，当商人的驴看到有机可乘，到老鼠那里贷了好多好多的款，把王八盖的房子都买下来，然后以更高的价格卖给了猪。猪的还贷期就越来越长，吃的越来越差，小猪崽子也不敢生了。由于猪的数目越来越少，狼觉得这样下去自己没有猪肉吃了，非饿死不可，于是开始调控，不让老鼠再借钱了。但是王八还没有停止盖房，把自己挣的钱和贷的钱全投入生产了。驴手上的猪窝囤积的很多，卖不动了被套牢了。结果，老鼠，王八，还有驴都挣了好多的猪窝。钱到最后集中到狼手上。如今，谁都等着狼把钱拿出来救命。聪明的你，如果你是狼，你会拿钱救哪个？ 猪为什么一定要买房子呢？为什么一定要在最被动的时候买房子呢？ 就因为它是猪，狐狸是个有名气的经济学家，狐狸不停的在电视报纸上忽悠，再不买房就更买不起了！房价永远只升不跌！目的是帮着狼给猪洗脑，好让狼快点多赚钱。一代代的猪被洗脑的时间太久了，都洗了几十年了，早就习惯被洗而忘记了怎么思考了，要不怎么叫猪呢。 而狼虽然看到猪的数量减少生活煎熬，可狼要开个十年一次的大会，需要繁荣景象，还要防狮子老虎什么的得造个大船争水上地盘，需要钱啊！有得就有失，死一些猪也不是什么大事，反正猪也没猪权。 西边住着的狗就不同了，狗很团结，觉着不公平就罢工。觉着什么贵得离谱就都不买啥。人家有狗权，也是猪不能比的，但也是狗自己争取的结果。还有就是狗比较实际，觉得自己买不起或对生活质量影响太大的东西就不买，真的需要就哪便宜在哪买，住哪还不是活着，找个窝卖的便宜的地儿，吃的用的卖的肯定也便宜，多好。猪可不一样，拼命往一个地方挤，都想住进高尚窝区，繁华地段，买一样的东西多花三倍的钱，买完还偷着乐呢。。。。。要不怎么能叫猪呢？ 猪看了文章心里不服，猪咋了，猪不也得娶媳妇，没个窝就代表俺没能耐，哪有母猪嫁给俺，不孝有三，无后为大啊！非婚生子又不给户口，不结婚行吗？母猪听这话也不乐意了，说那能怪俺啊？俺还不是怕人家笑话嫁了还没个窝吗？正好狗来旅行，听见觉得奇怪，说那猪爸猪妈的房子以后不都是你们的吗？你们现在两家加起来以后都只剩一家了，还多出一个窝呢。猪说，你懂啥，窝下面的地还是狼的，一个窝一次只能买几十年，之后还不知道咋样呢！狗听了更奇怪了，问那不是跟租窝一回事吗？不就是一次性租的时间长了点呗。你学我啊，我就喜欢整天在外面流浪，可就是有人不让，非安排给我一个不用钱的窝让我住，还给我生活费，生了小狗还给奶粉钱。要不你想想办法到我们那去吧。 猪听了有点不信也有点羡慕，但猪理智的想了想，说我已经很感谢我妈没把我生到南面去，听说那的动物都是黑色的，他们都吃不饱饭，没衣服穿，我的生活就不错了，还能计划着买个窝。。。。。。说到着，猪觉得自己是幸福的。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 狼跟王八听了小报告满意的点头，看来，我们的教育还是风成效的。只是，还是要加强。 June 04 Holy shit.... So, yeah, still got 28 dayz to go then I'll be in heaven. No more fuckin examation, no more fuckin paper, and no more fuckin presentation. Currently, the mgt4090 project is still haunting me 24/7. Pain, suffer and frustration. Well at least all of those will be gone in 7 dayz and I am looking forward to that. Still keep on my work out plan and everything looks pretty good rightnow, hope I could get rid of another 10-15 pounds in the next 20-25 dayz. Man I am so tired. May 24 健身，回家，结婚，等等 不知不觉，节食健身减肥已经12天了 不知不觉，还有40天就回家了，就和加拿大说bye bye了 不知不觉，还有84天就要大婚了，这辈子就算交待了 太多不知不觉了 也许时间，生命就是这样 在不知不觉中，体会了，品尝了，伤感了，感慨了 有人问我你走以后真的不会想，不会思念你在加拿大这五年么 我说不会，清醒的时候不会的 但是梦中，也许，也许吧 还能看到那已经被拆掉的super sam什么的... 就这样吧，让不知不觉来左右我的人生也没有什么不好的 |
|
|
