The Chronicles of Life and Death

It's 5:34 am.

Pretty is still in her dream.

I woke up around 5:17 am today.

Made myself a cup of coffee, lit up a cigarette, sit in front of my pc and started to thinking.

Pretty got big plan, so do I.

Recently, life for us seemed like it got on the wrong track, kinda out of the rhythm.

Like I said in my last entry, it's a long story, totally.

And what done is done, I really dont wanna talk about it.

But still, mistakes were made, drama was played and lessons were learned.

What I really like to say to let go sth, to comfort myself, is listed below.

 

1. Dont promise anything out of ur power.

2. The best way to shut somebody up is to make him/her wordless.

3. The only way to make others wordless is to become the best of best, the "one of a kind".

4. Not everybody can be the "one of a kind" thus be prepared.

5. It's not necessary to tell everybody u r the "one of a kind" since fame only brings envy.

6. Be patient, Rome was not built in a day.

7. Be kind and nice, twisted mind only brings twisted sight.

8. Dont rush urself if u've already got the tension and attention.

9. Wiser is much more important than richer.

0. Lighter heart lives longer.

 

So tomorrow will be a new day and I am still kinda wondering where is my stop......

I am the red in the rose, the flowers on the blankets on your bedroom floor
I am the gray in the ghost that hides with your clothes behind your closet door
I am the green in the grass that bends back from underneath your feet
I am the blue in your back-alley view where the horizon and the rooftops meet

I am the black in the book, the letters on the pages that you memorize
I am the orange in the overcast, a color that you visualize
I am the white in the walls that soak up all the sound when you cannot sleep
I am the peach in the starfish on the beach that wish the harbor wasn’t quite so deep

 

By Owl City

呵呵，今天上班第一天

不是很忙

领导交代我写一个PS，写俩RL

一共也就1000来字吧

截止日期是周一中午12点

基本给了我3天时间

相比当年学校里动辄10 PAGES DOUBLE SPACE EXCLUDE REFERENCE LIST的RESEARCH PAPER

这个任务未免简单了点

不过也罢，一切都是从小事做起的

 

慢慢来吧，慢慢来，做好眼前的，看好以后的就好了

今天收到了Rachel和Renee的信，比较开心

 

恩，最近好事坏事不少

坏事就不说了，先把从回国到现在的好事说下

6月28日，正式结束大学课程

7月02日，回到祖国

7月20日，收到毕业信，准备找工作

8月16日，婚礼结束，很顺利

8月26日，蜜月开始，去了南非和好望角，很开心，很难忘

9月02日，去了香港，不是人待的地方...

9月04日，又回到祖国，开始找工作

9月10日，被某单位相中，第一轮面试

9月15日，某单位继续相中我，第二轮面试

9月21日，某单位还是相中我，第三轮面试

9月22日，我有工作了，人生第一次，正式工作

9月26日，明天，我第一天上班，某单位不再是某单位，成了我的单位

 

我不知道以后会不会回去加拿大，但是国内的生活呢，基本上是毕业，结婚，找工作，我在几个月内都给搞定了，就差一个生孩子了....

慢慢来吧，变化太多太快也不是好事

答应大家放上的来得照片请再等等吧，最近真的比较忙了....

十天的南非+香港蜜月之行归来已经好几天了

事情比较多，还没有整理好照片

包括蜜月和婚礼在内的，手上至少有3k张照片....

过些日子具体介绍并放上照片吧....

 

找工作进行中...

Couple hrs ago I deleted my latest space entry due to the pressure from my family.

It's the first time I actually delete sth from my own very space, and it's done by sth against my will.

So...

It's so fuckin embarras that for this time, the very first time, I fuckin compromised.

But it's even embarras more, for those ppl who forced me to do so.

Because u ppl are the very example of what I consider as loser,

What I consider as who has no guts to face the problem but only know how to bury it.

 

My MSN space is my town, is my fuckin town. U ppl out there can read and judge or do whatever u want.

BUT U CAN'T FORCE ME TO WITHDRAW MY OWN IDEA AND MY REAL FEELING.

Don't shit me about stuff like "get over it".

'cause I can't. I can not get over it.

 

This incident only will reinforce my idea on free will and free speech.

And the right to express my-genuine-self.

There will be no next time for u ppl even to have the chance to force me to do so 

 

Don't get fooled by the title, I won't put so many things in this post since I don't got the time.
But yeah, I still gotta shit about sth, either ppl read this in the near future like it or not.
It's my blog, I got the right to decide what I want to say and what I don't.
There will be a Chinese version shortly after I finish this but it will be a total different entry.

Although I won't talk about all the shits appeared in the title, but yeah that single line basically concludes my recent state of mind.
I am tired, and it's not fair.
I don't know if it's the whole marriage thing or I just simply wanna get even.
I just think it's not fair.
Anyway, life is so fuckin hard, it supposes to be not fair, or where to get the fun huh?!

Only got about 30 some dayz to prepare for my once in a life time big fuckin presentation - the wedding ceremony.
And the clock has tic tac to the point that I only have sth less than half of that.
Yeah maybe by some very tiny and remotely chance that I may marry more than once in my entire life, from the long-shot perspective,
But just like we always say, the first time always is the best.
So, I must, and I have to, take the entire wedding thing serious enough as if the end of the world may fall upon me if I scew this up.
Anyway, I shall fear nothing, I just got really tired.

My parents, not very supportive for this wedding, as least not as supportive as I expected.
Financially, it's a mess. I am currently trying to apply a "$50" budget plan into a "$100" purchasing project so take ur guess...
Phsically, they don't have the time to be supportive. Work, the stock market and my beloved grandma, talking about having a life huh?!
Mentally, well let's skip this part so I won't freak out since freak out will dramatically decrease my health point and I don't have a lot of that left.
Anyway, I can't choose my parents and they've done a wonderful job to feed me up and other stuff.
Still need to say thanks, even I don't feel to.

And there are a lot of other stuff I can complain about.
But complaining ain't gonna solve shit.
So just let it be, I shall be prepared, for the very moment that my entire life will turn upside down.
Just let it be, like I still got a choice or sth.

已经到家一周了，忙得没有什么机会写点东西

或者干脆就是我不想写吧

发生了不少事情，有意料之中的，也有意料之外的

当然，还暂时没有什么对付不了的

慢慢的事情也会越来越多了，麻烦也会一点一点接近了

不过我想，应该还是不会有什么我对付不了的吧

我毕竟是自称un-fuck-able的人

有点困难有点艰辛是理所应当的

年轻人出力长力，慢慢的都会好了

 

国内很热，空调很舒服，coke zero和pepsi max现在也都有卖了，啥时候有我最爱的rockstar就完美了

不过想想也有10天没喝energy drink了，也没有什么不适应的

 

除了准备婚事，心里还在担心过些日子找工作的事情

心态也多少有了点变化，不过都是往好的方向

生活给生命的选择不多，那就得发挥点想象力了吧

断了7天的健身也从回国第三天恢复了正常，每天6点30到8点，还好还好

那个健身房除了洗澡的地方恶心点，别的都还好

性价比高，节约型社会要学会省钱了...

 

一件让我小感慨的事情

black eyed pea出了新专辑，大概1个月前吧，或者三周

反正我是在专辑放出下载，还没有正式发售的当天就down到自己的Mp3里了

最近健身一直在听，很有节奏感的歌

然后除了第一次听到是下载后的那天

第二次是10天前在学校的健身房，当时在放这张碟的一首主打，i gotta feeling

第三次是david送我上飞机前一天，在calgary的chinook centre，放的是boom boom pow，另一首主打

第四次是回国当天，在吃饭的饭店听到，放得还是i gotta feeling

第五次是在国内的健身房，还是那首i gotta feeling

第六次是刚才在楼下交手机费，一个很小的移动营业厅里，这次是party all the time了，也是首主打

 

这当然从一个侧面证明BEP的火热是全球化的，全世界人民都喜欢的

但是我的感受，主要是感觉现在的世界真的很小很小了

不同的文化，与其说冲击，不如说在慢慢融合

也许，总有一点理想国会出现吧

 

真是有点讽刺啊，我自己的生活未处于理想状态，竟开始幻想世界大同了

白日梦，day-dream